Know Thyself

by : Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.

If I have to be someone else ….

I wish I were Hiro, a time traveller …
He can stop the time. He can go to the past and the future

I don’t need to be like Claire. She is such a beautiful girl,
also a healer … It sounds very nice, but after I think it more and more, I
still prefer Hiro. To be like Claire who can heal, perhaps I can feel of not
being a human being anymore. If I get injured, then let it be. It’s so scary
for me if the wound can heal itself olala …

I don’t need to be like Parkman. Yes, his ability to read other
people’s mind is so attractive (for me) and can be bery useful in someway, but I still prefer Hiro. I
realize reading other people’s mind can be really pitiful if I find they
have so many bad things in their minds about me but they only talk behind me. I do believe knowing is better than not knowing though it hurts. But somehow,
finding the truth directly is something I definitely can’t bear. So let me
participate in the process of knowing the hurtful truth, if it exists, hopely
not.

I don’t need to be like someone who can fly, Hiro can go
everywhere without flying. There’s indeed
a joy feeling flying in the air, but it’s not too important for me.

I don’t need to be like someone who can move things just by
looking at them. I still have hands. In case I can’t, I will ask someone to
help me.

I don’t need to be like Molly, to locate other people, especially
used to the bad ones. No need, in this peaceful world.

I don’t need to be like someone who can paint the future, Isaac he said. I can go and see the future by Hiro’s ability. 

I don’t need to be like someone who can erase others’ memories. If I have such that ability, I won’t use it, because memories, the good and the bad, are very important for me, for everyone. I won’t do it to others, simply because I can’t.

Neither do I need to be like Peter Petrelli. His power only
depends on others and I don’t know people whose power I can absorb now.

I wish I were Hiro, a space traveller …
He can go everywhere he wants.
I wish I were Hiro, so I can go to see all the beautiful places in this world without any costs, without feeling tired, or etc etc.

I wish I were Hiro, a hero …
I can turn back the time to the past or go to the future to
see what happens at that time.
I can retain information about my childhood because I don’t have much memory about it, something I regret so much right now.
I can see what I will become and look like in the future.
I can stop the time, to feel the happy moments in my life
longer and longer.
I am a little afraid life’s not interesting anymore if we
can see our future.
But, I am so anxious to find out. So better if I can take a
look, just a little …
Being me who is very fond of complaining about the
limitation of time, I really wish I were Hiro.

A : How do you think others will see you ?
B : Isn’t the most important thing how I see myself ?

I know I am a bit late to know all of these (I like ‘Lots of Love’ the most for LOL expression) :

• Ugh is an onomatopoeiac representation of an aspirated sigh or gasp, used as an interjection to express repugnance, annoyance, aggravation, irritation, disgust, boredom or horror. UGH CRAB BATTLE   
• LOL (also written lol) is a common element of Internet slang used, historically, on Usenet but now widespread to other forms of computer-mediated communication such as instant messaging, and even spread to face-to-face communication. It is an acronym for "laughing out loud" or "laugh out loud" or less commonly, "lots of luck" or "lots of love".
• a more emphatic expression of laughter, "LMAO" ("laughing my ass off"). ROFL and LMAO are sometimes combined into ROFLMAO (rolling on floor laughing my ass off).
• ROFLOL - Rolling On the Floor Laughing Out Loud.
• ROTFLOL - Rolling On The Floor Laughing Out Loud.
• ROFLAPMP - Rolling On the Floor Laughing And Peeing my Pants.
• ROFLMAO - Rolling On the Floor Laughing My Ass Off.
• ROFLMAOASTC - Rolling On the Floor Laughing My Ass Off And Scaring The Cat.
• ROFLMAOAY - Rolling On the Floor Laughing My Ass Off At You.
• ROFLMAOWTIME - Rolling On the Floor Laughing My
                  Ass Off With Tears In My Eyes.
• ROFLCOPTER - An obscure method of laughing at something
       or someone, often associated with laughing over and over or
       non-stop. ROFLCOPTER is also associated with any type of ASCII  drawn helicopter that contains ROFL as its blades.
• ROFLAARP: Rolling On Floor Looking At Assorted Rodent Pornography
• ROFLEW: Rolling On Floor Laughing whilst Eating Waffles

^_^

Embrace what comes to our lives, just like the way we inhale, in every moment
Let go of our attachments, just like the way we breathe out, generously
Search no further, my dear friend
Peacefulness is right under our nose.

My thursday’s plan :
1. will wake up at 7 in the morning (+1 hour tolerance if I’m still too sleepy or I’m having a too good dream)
2. will finish my assignment at (i predict) 12 the latest
3. will have the motivation statement done at 17-18
4. will have the final version of the assignments to be printed after adding together with my friend’s at 23 the latest
5. will finally end up the full tired day fyuuuh successfully and happily by playing cards or watching some movies

I am really a diligent and productive person ! Thanks ^_^

I am losing the reason … and wondering what it was.

Got two new songs from my friends today on my winamp, already old ones. Finally I got it hahaha after a very long time of searching (didn’t know the titles before).

MATAMU
cipt : Dori Kalmas & Titi DJ

Dulu aku melihat binar matamu itu,
gugupku tak tersenyum ku tak percaya,
tak pernah ku melihat sepasang kelembutan,
selembut masa itu haa….
kini aku melihat kilau matamu itu,
lega aku tersenyum dan kupercaya,
dan masih ku melihat sepasang kehangatan,
sehangat mata itu, indah bersinar berkilauan,
semakin kuat untukku,

Reff :
Mata yang paling indah hanya matamu,
sejak bertemu kurasakan tak pernah berubah,
sinar yang paling indah dari matamu,
sampai kapanpun itulah yang terindah

Dulu aku melihat gugupku tak tersenyum,
kini aku melihat lega ku tersenyum
dan masih ku melihat dalamnya kerinduan,
sedalam mata itu,
selalu bersinar berkilauan, semakin kuat untukku

–

Dari Hati
ClubEighties

andai yg kau tahu
bila menjadi aku
sejuta rasa di hati

lama tlah ku pendam
tapi akan kucoba mengatakan

reff:   
ku ingin kau menjadi milikku
entah bagaimana caranya
lihatlah mataku untuk memintamu

ku ingin jalani bersamamu
coba dengan sepenuh hati
kuingin jujur apa adanya dari hati

kini yg kau tahu
aku menginginkanmu tapi takkan ku paksakan
dan ku pastikan
kau belahan hati bila milikku

repeat reff

menarilah bersamaku dengan bintang-bintang
sambutlah diriku untuk memelukmu

repeat reff
–

Well, do you know that love is identic with eyes ?

I remember when I was still in Junior High School, I once was a big fans of Nicky (Westlife) and collected so many informations and photos about him although I had already known he has married with the daughter of the prime minister of Ireland. I listened to their songs over and over. When their video clips played on MTV, i would phone my friend asap. Teenager’s style … !

I also liked to watch korean drama, Hotelier, All About Eve, Endless Love, Dolphin Bay, etc etc, dreaming to be the part of the movie. Had been such a long time I didn’t watch that kind of movies.

When I saw Angela Zhang’s performance on tv, maybe a week ago, reminded me of her perfomance in the dolphin bay. I like her acting very much there. Many of my friends said that she is not beautiful. But I don’t know why I have a different opinion. I like her face, voice and all her songs, and I know she is a very nice actress. I have just asked my friend to share all her songs to the lan

Isn’t she beautiful?

When I am in university, what I watch is something like cinema movies, japanese (one litre of tears, proposal, etc etc), or western ones (charmed, heroes, etc etc). It is cooler. Yes !

Yesterday, I watched Why Why Love, a love theme drama with handsome men
and cute girls inside. As usual the ending of the story was already
very predictable, but still I enjoy it very much. I feel being a teenager
again. Hahaha.

Listening to other people’s life and their family’s problems somehow makes me feel I am such a very lucky person born in this world. If I were them perhaps I have been very depressed.
Being a melancholist person, I almost always think of the worst case scenario in everything and if it really happens, I feel maybe I can’t stand it.
But do you ever feel you can’t pass something really bad if it happened to you and the fact is you can make it well enough, much more than you imagined before?
I do, many times.
I think the reason is either people’s power can show up the most when they are under pressure or they don’t know and have been considering themselves too weak. Sometimes you can stand and do VERY WELL what you think you can’t.